i will always love you
This a blog just not about me and my life.Its a tribute to all those people who came into this insignificant life of mine and made it worth living.I am thankful for the love,respect as well as the pain they gave in my life.Its made me a stronger person...its made me learn to live with pain and use it to rise once again like a pheonix.Hope you enjoy it...and who knows maybe you can relate your life to mine ...what say?
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Dreams !
Saturday, August 25, 2007
TONIGHT
Tonight
oh!father of Jesus
guide me through tonight
give me the strength to lift myself
because my shoulder drops tonight
and no longer is my head held high
no longer do i have the courage to carry on
oh!lord send me your favourite child to guide me
to hold my hand ...to walk with me by my side
cause i am all alone tonight
and i cant stand the waves of frustration anymore
i am drowning in the quicksand of this materialistic world
with nobody to hold onto ...
bring your loved one back tonight
call her back for me
because i need her to be there by my side tonight...
she is the element that resides in me
with her i am everything without her i am nothing
her love is my strength,her tears are my pain
her voice is my hope,her silence is my despair
the sound of her every breath is the blood that flows in me
with the silence my heartbeat stops... time stops
show me her eyes once again because only they can stop my tears
show me her smile because only that can lift my head up to the world tonight...
Friday, May 25, 2007
A Fool In Love
A stranger you have been to me...no name...no past???
Who are you then ??
Why in the word do you then make me feel as if you define my existence???
...Why do you give me so much pain as well as so much hope...
Just Stop fucking my head!!!
..Stay by me or leave forever...
love me or kill me...
Just dont let me lead a half life...
You are my greatest strength as well as my greatest weakness...
You are my greatest pride as well as my greatest remorse..
I am a fool in love...
The more you hate me... the more i will love you ...
not for the pain you gave me ...
But for the memories you have given me...
Thats because i will always remember the love and erase the hate...
Cause i am just a fool so in love with you...dreaming dreams never meant for me...
Yet i dream coz in it is the sweet memories of you which i forever see...
Friday, December 08, 2006
Coldness outside warmth within
I see the world today just like a schoolchild sees the world through the bus window on a foggy morning. It looks real but yet distorted just like it looks when I cry. The child doesn’t want to open the window and see how the real world looks because it’s too cold outside…just like I don’t want to open my heart for you lest I get hurt again… and again get lost in this bitter fog of emotions…we have our differences…call it age, time, financial status …yet I yearn for you and wish if things would only be the way between you and me like the one I dream about everyday…I wish you would see me the way I see you…but for that I need to open my heart and accept you and that I can’t do because I am too afraid of the pain and the rejection which would come sooner or later…just like the little child cant open the window because it’s a cold, lonesome world outside.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
A story i just love cause i can relate to it (i havent written it just came across it )
Sunday, June 18, 2006
MY RAY OF HOPE
MY RAY OF HOPE
Slow lonely night - every star reflects the shattered crystal ball in which i saw my future once ..
Slow slow night, if I could only meet my angel once...
If I could never meet her in life, I'd pray to die, and die so soon..
We'd dance to the song of the stars, we'd sway to the hum of the moon ...
We would be swift as the air; how I wish my angel was there!
Now its a dream once lived, shattered in reality,
Faith lost to truth, courage betrayed to adversary.
Bridges of hope crumbling to ashes far above the cries of helplesness...
But the hope in my heart says you will wait for me beyond it all, beyond nothingness
Drowning in the abyssmal waves of despondency, to you I call,
The nothingness envelops me as I try to make my way through it,I falter,I stumble,I fall.
I look for you but the mist of horrific thoughts makes me blind,
My gaurdian angel I need u to come down and hold my hand tonight
Through mists of smoke, through the dark red haze,
I find my angel, I see her face..
And on we go in life upon its endless roads having endless hopes..
Who is she? I know not now,
But this I know, we'll meet somewhere somehow...
And when she comes to my barren earth,
No more shadows, there shall again be joy and mirth.
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
One Winter Night...
Ever sat in front of the computer late in the middle of the night...when its all eerie and quiet???wondering where life is heading? Wondering where all your friends are and what they are doing?Wondering why you couldn’t be as successful as them?Wondering and moaning about why you screwed up and why didn’t u listen to the good advices???Has it ever happened to you that to take your mind off your failures you walk into a chat room because you don’t want to talk to your friends and reminded of their success and your failures. And then you meet someone... a stranger in a chat room who chats to you till its dawn and you feel in the end that life aint so bad ...and you wish why you hadn't met this stranger earlier and you wish why couldn’t this stranger live closer to you instead of a thousand miles apart !!!
Has this ever happened to you???....This poem is an ode to that stranger I met ... we meet people everyday in our lives who put a smile onto our face but we never stop by and thank them for it ...this is the time...this is the chance...stop forget about everything that you are doing...remember them...and thank them for what they made you feel. I might forget what they looked like or did to me but i can never forget how they made me feel by what they said at that stage of my life...
ONE WINTER NIGHT
It was a cold winter night,
Foggy, misty and dark all outside,
Sitting alone and yearning
That I could break free
through the shackles of despair.
I run through the road of life
Not knowing where my next step would fall,
Its the toughest fight of life,
when hopes gone and no ones beside
Yet you know you have to fight.
Fight to win, fight to survive
You need to fight to keep your head held up high..
But somehow the mist of despair surrounds me. and i suddenly am lost...
Out of the mist you came ....and held my hand
I remember that day when you came into my life..
Till then i was all alone..
I didn’t love myself until you came.
I didn’t care about life, until you happened.
My life is a shadow
It has no heart and soul
Yet it gives me pain
And follows me everywhere I go...even on cloudless days
My shadow longs to touch your hair
And talk to you
But just as day and night cannot come together
and dreams and realities can never walk hand in hand...
So cannot you and I..
I miss you and everything you are to me
I remember when you said...
Do not fret when times get rough.
If things look down or kind of tough
Just remember ...I am always here
I remember those words in my dream..
Like I remember your face in my sleep.
It hurts not having you here and it doesn't help at all.
But for now farewell my friend
For I have miles to go to live my dream.
And I know your shadow will be behind me.
Watching silently and whispering to me and showing me the way...
For knowing you
for loving you
So much I have gained
you are god’s fairest child
You are an angel I have known...
My soul you have touched.
Only time will tell where we stand
but no matter what happens from here and forever...
I always want you to know...
That I would rather be here with you, at this moment...
Than with anybody else, anywhere in this world at any given time.
So for now farewell god’s fairest child ...
Maybe one day it will be you and I
walking along side by side.
I hope that day comes soon..
Till then I will live my life just thinking about you ...The stranger I have known..