I was cold and hurting
lost out in the misty night
wandering and searching
for heaven's light
I saw the mist clearing
when you spread your wings to shelter me
But little did I know
what joy you would bring
From that moment on
a friendship did start
innocent it was...
like a new born childs cry
you kissed away my tears
and sheltered my heart
But then I grew fearful
for I had fallen in love
How do I tell you I'm sorry -
With a gesture, a look, a touch?
How is it I never realized
That you trust me so much
And instead I hurt you so very much?
I do not ask forgiveness,
A comfort I'll never deserve.
I merely want to let you know,
But I cannot find the nerve.
To finally confront you, face-to-face,
To look you in the eye,
To face your wrath, your apathy -
Too terrified to try.
Betraying and deceiving you,
I surely had no right
The time has come, it's long past due,
To put aside my fear and i wonder;
Would this confession torture you,
I wish I could tell you how I really feel inside.
That I'd be willing to take that chance
To be more than just your friend.
I know you sense this, as I do,
but it's easier to pretend.
Saying it would make it real
and you'd run away and hide from me.
And i don't want that to happen
Because Without you by my side today
Life would be so slow
I would miss your calls
Our endless talks
And the places we would go
I would gladly walk a mile,
if that would give me a chance
to see you smile.
I'd call you my friend,
but that's a lie.
You mean more to me,
but I can't explain why.
For you are more precious to me
than all of the world's gold,
but I can't tell you that,
how can I be that bold?
If I spoke what's on my mind,
would you accept me?
Because without you,
I don't know where I'd be.
You seem to be calm,
while I feel absolutely lost.
I would like to be so bold,
but what would its failure cost?
Am I the only one faced with this choice?
Be daring and risk losing you as a friend too?
I can't risk that; I'd rather have that then lose everything.
What should I do?
You might not even bear to look at me,
And I know my mistake
A few thoughtless actions which i never could control,
I know we cannot take it back
As much as we would like to
I'm so confused
I think to myself, "What am I going to do?"
My head tells me to let go
But my heart says, "I love you"
People always say, love never lasts"
They also tell me "Don't worry, your day will come
Your days of loss will quickly pass"
Then where is it?
Where is my day that I will see what I want and who I am?
Where is my next love who will teach me
what it's like to tell the truth again?
I'm trapped in a cage that has no key
I want you to hold me
But at the same time
I wish that you'd let me be
This yearning in my heart
This confusion in my mind
The words left unspoken
Haunts me all the time
Everyday I watch pass by
With an emptiness in my life
And a hole in my heart
Where only you belong
If time is what you need,
Then I guess that's what you'll get
But I need you there for me soon,
Be it as my friend or more,
And i hope you will forgive if i have sinned by loving you,
Just don't run away and hide from me
I don't want that to happen
I don't want to lose your friendship
But i am confused i don't know what to do?
So i ask you my friend to guide me and tell me
Cause you are the angel i know who will always guide me
whether i am right or wrong
